I’m stuck on sugar.
I hate when this happens.
Which is usually in the winter.
When I find myself, seeking out sugar.
And while I may not seek out sugary “junk”, I am seeking cakes and cookies.
Or even chocolate, even though I’m not such a big fan of it.
Now, while this blog is for the purpose of processing emotional attachments (and being addicted to sugar can be argued a biological addiction), I decided nevertheless to treat being “stuck on sugar” like any other emotional attachment and see where it would take me.
Because, in a way, I guess I felt like I needed to “feed” my body on sugar because it was making me feel good, just like the way I (and all of us) feel like we need to “feed” ourselves on emotional attachments (stuck on “x”) because in each particular situation, we feel like they make us feel good or right.
2 weeks ago tomorrow, I….
“S” – STOPPED and PAUSED before doing anything else.
And “T” – Told myself how I was feeling.
Carrying too many extra pounds around the waistline.
Not happy with my figure.
Then, I looked to see what may be “U” – underneath it all. In other words, how is it that I got myself into this place?
The cold weather?
Not getting out of the house enough?
That have lots and lots of energy?
And make lots of lots of noise?
Alllllllllllllll the time?
And, perhaps I comforted myself from the stresses of life with sugar??
Then I got to “C” – to consider another perspective, to choose another reality, to consciously behave differently,
and realized that I don’t have to be addicted to sugar.
I could choose to eat foods that don’t contain sugar.
Just like when I’m stuck on anything else and I choose to behave differently.
And, I certainly can eat in a more mindful manner, for sure.
So, what did I do?
Went on a cleanse.
To detoxify my body of sugar.
(Which I believe, consider me a freak or an extremist, is a poison to our bodies in any event.)
I started by eliminating all sugars (including all fruit temporarily) from my diet.
And simultaneously, I eliminated anything made with wheat: bread, pasta, crackers, pretzels, cereals, etc. (because not only do they also contain sugar, I felt addicted to those, too… probably because, in the end, all of these foods turn to sugar in our bodies anyway).
*(By the way, most people who think I’m crazy when I tell them I’m doing a cleanse ask, “Then what DO you eat?”… Which seems funny to me… I just respond, “My usual diet, minus the sugar and wheat: salads, all other grains besides wheat (oats, rice, barley, spelt, rye), eggs, cheese, quinoa, all kinds of nuts, all kinds of seeds, and beans. That’s PLENTY to eat off of and be satisfied from!”)
After the first day, I already felt effects.
Slimming down in the belly area.
More “regular” bowel movements.
Happier with my figure.
Almost two weeks later, I am witnessing that I’m no longer stuck on sugar.
Not only do I not need it, I’m not even seeking it out.
(Not that this detox is the final step, because it’s certainly not.)
The purpose of the cleanse was to have a jump start to get back to mindful eating: the practice of raising awareness while eating, listening to the body, and responding to its signals.
And, when I get to “K”, I remind myself that despite the fact that I fell off the path of mindful eating (again), it’s o”K” that I got stuck in the first place.
It’s just a part of living.
And living again.