As I continue to practice taking time each day to just sit, I am more and more aware of how much rushing I do.
Rushing to wake up early enough so that I can get some daily exercise in before the kids wake up.
Rushing to make breakfast (and pack lunches at the same time).
Rush to get the kids off to school (and clean up the dishes at the same time).
Rushing at the supermarket.
Rushing while driving.
Rushing with my conversations.
Rushing while eating.
Rushing even to just meditate.
What is the root of rushing and why do I (we?) do it?
And, while I accept that yes, there are things we need to do at certain moments of the day, I’m not convinced that all the rushing I do is required to get through the day.
In fact, quite the opposite, I’m convinced that slowing down would be a much healthier and productive way of living.
I believe in God.
I believe that the Creator’s energy is eternal.
I also believe that that energy provides us with whatever we need in each given moment, whether it is: strength, or peace, or calm, humility, gratitude, or love.
The problem is, I am rushing too often to ever notice it.
In this week’s Torah portion, Jacob dreams of a ladder and angels going up and down it. When he woke up, he said, “Surely God was here in this place, but I did not know it.” (Genesis: 28:16).
God was there. But, Jacob missed it.
Perhaps (in his sleep), he was also rushing.
Or, desiring something that prevented him from receiving God’s presence in that moment.
Thanks for my daily practice of just sitting (and therefore, slowing down), I catch myself from falling into the pit of desire to rush.
Like this morning, when I was taking one of my children to kindergarten.
And, he decided to stop and explore ants on the ground.
“Are you kidding me?”, I thought to myself. “We have to stop and look at ants at 7:30 AM?”
“Look, Ema. Here’s the big ants that carry things on their backs. These little ones are too weak to carry anything. They are just following.”
He was so intrigued.
And, I was grateful that I knew to stop.
And be calm.
And be there with him.
And feel God’s presence.